I'm Pretending to Work, but Rambling about My Freakisms Instead

Sometimes I really wonder if I'm a socially dysfunctional weirdo. Sometimes I catch myself being really blunt and awkward, and I wonder if it's my panicking or if I actually have problems. In Bio last week, I introduced myself to someone, and Kristen (who was sitting next to me) told me that my "Hi, I'm Emily" sounded angry. I felt perfectly cheerful while saying it, but what if I come off like that a lot?! I promptly leaned over and clarified with a smile that I was in no way angry, and just got a funny look. Oh, dear. What is happening to me?!

My favorite quote from last semester is from when I passed by a girl I knew and in awkward greeting waved my hand in a sort of stiff, quick, up-and-down, hand wave. Who does that?! Most people say "Hey," perhaps accompanied by a casual, natural gesture of greeting or recognition. I never got that chromosome, apparently. I wave like a Nazi. My roommate gave me a hard time about my awkward wave, and I responded with "Sometimes I'm just awkward in public."

Also, I think I talk quieter than I realize. Sometimes I'll be talking to someone and I'll say something offhand (perhaps a clever commentary on something that happened, or a quick "Office" quote) but the person to whom I'm speaking often doesn't understand, but when asked to repeat said quip, it doesn't make sense, and just makes for awkward.

I realize that a lot of people do stupid things, but sometimes I feel like a do/say an unusual amount of awkward. For future reference, please tell me if I'm being a weirdo so that I can immediately start work on fixing my freakisms.